Archive Journal Entry 20030127

It’s been far too long since last I updated this journal…

Today is my first day working from home in quite some time. It has been good in some ways, hard in others. Melanie and the kids have really left me alone, and so I have gotten quite a bit done… but I’ve had lots of administrivia kinds of things to do so I don’t feel very productive. Tomorrow should be all good 🙂

I had a birthday party. It was very nice. Chris, Jeanne, Kristine, Celine and Alexei came. I was very happy that it was small. We had a great meal of home-made hamburgers (paprika, steak spice and soy sauce). After dinner, I opened a few presents. Melanie got me a very nice small prayer book called “Prayers of Ecstasy” which has recently been published by Palabra. I didn’t take many photos. This party was very small compared to my 30th birthday party last year.

Last year I wanted to have a special party for my 3rd decade of life. I told people to not bring me presents. Instead, I asked people to come to “A Celebration of Significance”:

to which you will bring a gift of wisdom, beauty or philosophy to share with everyone. Consider music, poetry, quotations from spiritual, philosophical or fictional works, even something you have created yourself – anything you consider significant in your life.

We had the party at our place in Elmvale. Unfortunately I did not yet have the digital camera, but we did take photos and video. Someday 🙂 I will digitize some of them and put them up here.

Everyone came through with some really interesting “gifts” to share. My friend Ying wrote a Chinese proverb and explained it to us, I shared a song I really liked at the time, some people shared stories, recipes, and other things. All-in-all it was a very beautiful experience. Thanks!

Archive Journal Entry 20030115

I’ve been reading “Gleanings from the Writings of Baha’u’llah” lately. On Monday night I came across this quote:

CXXIII. The generations that have gone on before you–whither are they fled? And those round whom in life circled the fairest and the loveliest of the land, where now are they? Profit by their example, O people, and be not of them that are gone astray.
Others ere long will lay hands on what ye possess, and enter into your habitations. Incline your ears to My words, and be not numbered among the foolish.
For every one of you his paramount duty is to choose for himself that on which no other may infringe and none may usurp from him. Such a thing–and to this the Almighty is My witness–is the love of God, could ye but perceive it.
Build ye for yourselves such houses as the rain and floods can never destroy, which shall protect you from the changes and chances of this life. This is the instruction of Him Whom the world hath wronged and forsaken.

I like this a lot because Melanie and I have been talking about our “dream home” and where to live. We are concerned about stability and being close to family. But although those things are important to a degree, they are also impossible to guarantee.

Today was a great day at work. I accomplished a lot including some review of c++, working on automated test plans and test cases, and some architectural work for the project I am on right now. Tomorrow (actually today since it is 12:30am), I have meetings all day. Should be interesting.

Archive Journal Entry 20030109 (next evening)

I had a great day at work today. Nothing amazing all by itself, but I felt like I contributed and helped. Nevertheless, I’m darn lonely. I went to see “Catch Me If You Can” tonight with Leonardo DiCaprio and Tom Hanks (who doesn’t seem to have an official web site). Anyway, “Catch Me If You Can” is a very interesting story about a young man who impersonates a pilot, a doctor, a lawyer and is based on a true story. The movie is very well paced: the writing is great, the directing, the acting… all in all a fabulous time. I cried at the end 🙂 I’m a real sucker for happy endings. Anyway, it got me thinking about my life. Sometimes I feel like I am playing at life, and sometimes I feel like I am really in it. Tonight it is like I woke up. I’ve been playing for a while and I want to start living. All my life I’ve felt like my family is destined for greatness. What can I do to contribute? What can I do to make a difference in the world? My children, my job, my faith, my love… these are where I can start. I have them now.

Archive Journal Entry 20030109

I bought 5 CD’s in the last few days. On Monday evening I bought “Sandstorm” by Darude (CD single) at “The Wiz” which is a consumer electronics place near my Jersey City apartment. I also ordered 4 more online from Tower Records, all CD singles: “Whenever, Wherever” by Shakira, “Omnibus” by Laut Sprecher, “Addicted to Bass” by Puretone, and “The Sound of Goodby” by Perpetuous Dreamer. These all have dance/techno/trance versions which I originally heard on FM93.7 in San Francisco. It’s possible to find mp3’s of most of these using Kazaa.

I bought and have started reading “Patterns of Enterprise Application Architecture” by Martin Fowler et. al. – so far it is excellent. It is intelligently written. This is in stark contrast to “Applied Microsoft .NET Framework Programming” which is written so poorly I can barely stand it. The author, Jeffrey Richter does not seem to have had a very good editor because the persistent tone of the book is incredibly, insultingly condescending. Uck.

I’m seriously considering buying an Alesis RA150 amplifier for my home stereo system. As far as I can tell, it would work with my CD player. But the really great thing about it is its absolutely incredible sound quality! I’m also thinking about selling my Technics electronic piano and getting an Alesis QS8.2synthesizer. Both are weighted 88-key systems, but the sound possibilities with the Alesis are lightyears beyond the Technics… and its cheaper!

About 45 minutes ago I just finished watching my new Star Wars II – Attack of the Clones DVD that my cousin Celine got me. When it came out in the theatres, Melanie and I went to see it in San Francisco. I think our ex-landlord, Kip, babysat for us. Speaking, of DVD’s, they are incredibly cheap in Canada… no more buying DVD’s in the US for us.

Alexei Berteig, my dear Broteig, is going to be going to some big film festival in L.A. (and N.Y.) where his documentary “The Perfect Divorce” is going to be shown. The documentary is about our parent’s divorce and how it affected him. Lots of people have seen it since it has been aired 3 times nationally (Canada) on Global television. “The Perfect Divorce” was produced by WestWind Pictures. I really hope it wins some awards and he makes some good contacts there. Here is a short interview with Alexei about the documentary. Alexei is also working on a film called Identity.

Archive Journal Entry: 20021231

New Year’s Eve.

We’re having a great time here at my dad’s. Today my dad took the kids (Benja, Micah, Haifa, Justice and I) to his studio. The young ones painted bird houses. Haifa did a really great job 🙂 I sat beside her and helped her get paint. We used some really neet little tubes of watercolors. After the painting was done, dad pulled out his bow and showed Justice how it worked. Dad shot at a target in the studio only about 5meters away. He got the quarter sized bulls-eye on his eighth shot. Justice was really impressed.

Yesterday was Haifa’s birthday. We had a small party. Klee Rogers and the Konopakies came by. Haifa got some gifts and we had a Dairy Queen icecream cake. I took lots of photos and they will eventually get put up on Melanie’s site. Yesterday was the first day that Haifa really seemed to be doing better. We have discovered that decongestant really helps her feel good as she is getting rid of her sickness.

We bought a whole bunch more movies including the “Back to the Future” trilogy, “Iron Monkey” and others. I loved “Iron Monkey” just for the fight scenes.

Archive Journal Entry: 20021225

I finally finished the "Liveship Traders" series… WOW! That is one cool series, and it is really neet how it ties in with Robin Hobb‘s previous series. I don’t think I have been so affected so many times by a work of fiction.

I bought a few DVD’s: "Lilo & Stitch", "Monsters, Inc.", "Ice Age", "Monster’s Ball" and "Amelie". I haven’t watched any of them yet on DVD, but I have seen both "Ice Age" and "Monsters, Inc.". My brother recommended "Lilo & Stitch" and I heard from a magazine article about Netflix that "Monster’s Ball" was very well regarded. "Amelie" just intrigues me… I watched "Lilo & Stitch" I loved it. It’s quite the tear-jerker, but then I’m a real sucker for loyalty movies.

Melanie, Justice, Haifa, Alexei and I are all visiting my dad’s family in Fort McMurray, Alberta. We got here on the 20th. We arrived at the Edmonton airport. My dad picked us up at the airport in his Suburban. That was at midnight Ontario time. We then drove for five more hours north of Edmonton to get to Fort McMurray. Suffice it to say, we didn’t get much sleep. Melanie and Haifa both got sicker. Haifa actually has had a pretty bad fever for the last three days (around 39 degrees Celsius). It was mostly better today, but this evening it came back. If it stays bad much longer, we’ll probably take her in to a doctor since she also isn’t drinking as much as she should be.

I’ve looked all over Fort McMurray for a hard drive enclosure. I want to get an enclosure that has both Firewire and USB2.0 so that I can transport a small hard drive between Toronto and Jersey City instead of a heavy laptop. I found one at Staples for CA$149 that is decent, but it is just USB2.0. Still, maybe I’ll get it.

I’m hoping that Melanie, Alexei and dad (Garry) will make an agreement so that Melanie will do work to promote Lex and dad’s careers. Alexei and dad don’t know too much about promotion, and they are particularly blind to the methods when they try to apply them to themselves. I’m hoping that Melanie can spend a couple hours each week for both of them to help do some basic stuff. I’ve got some ideas: apply for grants, look for speaking/exhibition opportunities, work on websites and other marketing materials, do cold-call promotion to corporations, etc. The problem seems to be that Melanie also has no sense of what to do for them. Personally, I don’t think it really matters: an extra few hours a week of almost anything will help 🙂 I hope that I can get involved a little as well. I also hope that she will be able to spend some time working on my business needs such as a web site, looking for side contracts, doing taxes and other paperwork and working on financial management (investing a float).

Archive Journal Entry: 20021218

Here are two interesting online questionnaires: about philosophy and politics – very thought provoking, about religion and belief – this one got me pegged.

Here’s a diary entry I posted on kuro5hin:


I love movies. A movie can be inspiring, enjoyable, challenging, funny, instructive… or it can be depressing, unpleasant, meaningless, boring or deceptive. But either way, a movie can still be “good”. So what makes a good movie? Poll and discussion…

I have personal preferences regarding the genre of movies I like (action, sci-fi, romantic comedy) and don’t like (horror, suspense, most drama, mystery). I have some favorites that don’t really fall into those categories (“Run
Lola, Run
“, “The Last Emperor“, “Crouching
Tiger, Hidden Dragon
“, “The Cook, the Thief, His Wife, and Her Lover“). Please add your own favorites to the discussion. Why did you like them?

But what about qualities? I tend to like films that have good music and sound effects. For example, “Run Lola, Run”, “Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon” and “The Cook…” all have music and sound effects that turn good, cool movies into hair-raising excellent movies that I will watch over and over and over again.

My younger brother is a film-maker (no-one famous, yet). He has sensitized me to many other aspects of a film. For example, every good film rests on a good script. If the dialog and story structure suck, or even are just mediocre, then it is difficult to become fully immersed in the story. An excellent script can even make a good movie out of poor actors. Acting quality is important, but lets face it: most Hollywood actors are… actually quite good! Sure some of them have a limited repertoire, but within that range, they are well-honed.

Now plot… one of the interesting things about plot is that it is usually all exactly the same: one character goes through the “hero’s journey” (do a google search) either literally or symbolically. I personally find that I am more affected by a movie when that hero’s journey is represented in a movie at more than one level.

Other factors: I tend to like any movie with cool special effects. But special effects can be over-done (“Attack of the Clones” springs to mind). On the other hand, “Spiderman” was the perfect mix of special effects and story (I absolutely loved how the everyboy’s dream of becoming a super-hero was presented). I really dislike visually dark movies. The darkness (for example in “The
Crow
“) seems to detract from my ability to become caught up in the movie. It annoys me and I keep noticing that I’m watching a movie instead of being enthralled by the plot and characters and imagery. Despite its other excellent features, “Blade Runner” is also like this for me.

I also love the pure escapism of romantic comedy, but I’m getting pickier. I still love “Forget Paris“, but some of the others are starting to annoy me. I tend to like the things Steve Martin does but they tend to focus more on the comedy than the romance. FWIW, I tend to watch only Hollywood movies.

So what do you think?


Here are some of the things I would do to clean up the story:

1. Work on the implied hypothesis in the intro (movies can be good even if they are "negative") and emphasize it more in the body
2. A more interesting poll perhaps about the most important qualities of a movie
3. More clearly separate my own personal tastes vs. a discussion of the hypothesis

I was partly inspired to write this because I re-watched much of "Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon" last night.

Archive Journal Entry: 20021211

O for a good UML modelling tool!!! I’ve tried the three common ones: Rational Rose, Together Control Center, and Microsoft Visio. They all basically suck (and that’s why I’m not linking to them). Time to start looking around for a better one… I’ve been busy creating the mother of all sequence diagrams at work. I’m using Visio for it. Visio is okay for most things, but if you need to resize the activation bar on a lifeline, everything gets screwed up. Additionally, Visio’s UML capabilities don’t seem to support conditional messages. There’s smaller irritants as well: resizing of UML diagram components is limited or non-existant (even with the update from M$), the attachement points are hard to use, the message arrow lines cannot be easily routed manually, and if a message arrow gets disconnected, it forgets what message it was calling. And that’s all just a rant about sequence diagrams!!!

Another work note: I’m trying to get Eclipse (my absolute most favorite Java IDE ever) to work with C and C++ on Windows. I installed Cygwin to see if that would help, but I’m having trouble figuring out how to get it to build a simple HelloWorld app. If I can get it working well with C and C++ it becomes a candidate to be the standard IDE here.

Last night I made a mistake when I bought supplemental groceries and the pharmacy: I got bread and honey. I’ve eaten 14 slices of bread with butter and honey in the last 24 hours. I think that’s about equivalent to 2000 Calories by itself. It’s just that it’s so darn yummy!!!

Melanie and Haifa are sick 🙁 I hope they feel better soon, but if they don’t, I kinda look forward to helping out at home this weekend. Melanie will get a couple meals in bed at least. She’s been reading the stories from the books of short stories I got her. One is a Philip K. Dick collection which includes the now well-known “Minority Report”. The other is a multi-author collection with selections from Stephen King, Orson Scott Card, Anne McCaffery, and others. I think she’s read two stories now. I wrote a card with the gift basically saying I hoped that she would be able to have a bit of a fantasy life. She’s so busy that she doesn’t have time really to read novels: they end up taking way too long. So short stories… we’ll see how it goes. If Melanie says the stories are good, I’ll put links to the books here.